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ものがたり
大切なのは、つねに《ゼロ》であること。
こうあるべきという衣をはがして、自分と出会おう。
男でも、女でもない、自分と。
世界でたったひとりの自分と。
This 60-minute documentary will focus on three key phases in the lives of the protagonists.
Takamasa has become officially recognized as a man, by being recorded as such in his family register,
following an operation to give him the body of a man.
Miyuki in the final stage of her life, looking back on the upheavals of her eventful life before she finally became a woman.
And also, Jun who is trying to convince the public about the third gender.
By comparing the experiences of the three protagonists, the documentary will illuminate contemporary Japanese society, in which people are more likely to reject others who are different. It will also raise the question: Is there anywhere in the world where those who are different can live without fear of rejection.
６歳。
活発な女の子。小学5年の時、初めて違和感を感じる。
きっかけは赤いランドセル。
「なんでかはわからなかったけど、いやだった。学校に行けば、女子トイレを使う、女の子扱い。女の子の枠に入れられる…」
At age 6—a tomboy
At age 11-- feels uneasiness about gender at school
“I didn’t know why, but I felt something was wrong.
I had to use girl’s toilets, I had to carry a girl’s red school bag,
I was categorized as a girl…”
12歳。セーラー服を着るのが嫌で登校拒否。
「嫌だって思うんだけど、何が嫌なのかわからないから、余計にいらいらして。わかれば解決しようと思うんですけど、わからないからどうしようもできなくて。嫌だなっていうと、何が？って聞かれて。その何ががわからないんで言えないです。」
At age 12—stops going to school, feels a strong hatred about wearing a skirt - a girl’s uniform.
“I still didn’t know what actually was wrong. I was irritated because I didn’t know what to do. I was asked “what are you irritated about?” but I couldn’t answer without knowing the reason, and that made me even more frustrated.”
14歳。中学校に、男子生徒として通うことを認めてもらう。
これは、初めて学ランを着て学校に行った日の朝、
「やっぱ俺は女じゃなかったから、無理して女のふりする必要はないんだと思って。自分のしたいようにしようと思えたんで、いっきに明るくなりましたね。」
At age 13—diagnosed with ‘Gender Identity Disorder’ by a psychiatrist
At age 14 – persuades a junior high school to accept him as a boy student.
When a photo was taken on the first day of wearing a boy’s uniform, he could then finally say;
“Now I know that I’m not a girl. I now don’t need to pretend to be a girl, so I thought now I can do what I want to do. This idea brought a bright future to me.”
16歳。男性ホルモンを打ち始め、声が低くなる。
18歳。胸を切除する手術を受ける。
20歳。子宮と卵巣を切除する性別適合手術を受ける。
「なんで手術したいかって…だってみんなは将来いろいろしたいことあるだろうけど、ゼロからプラスに行くわけだけど、いま自分はマイナスにいるから、プラスに行くにはまずゼロに戻らなきゃいけないなと。」
At age 16—starts masculine hormone therapy. Acquires a lower voice.
At age 18—female to male surgery; breast removal
At age 20—female to male surgery; uterus and ovary removal
“Why do I want to go through with these surgeries? Because everybody starts from zero to do what they want for their future, but I’m still at the minus level. In order to go to plus, I have to return to zero first.”
20歳半。男と女、両方の性を生きた八代みゆきさん（92歳）に出会う。
⇒ 戦前の子供時代から男性である自分への違和感を感じつつも、時代の流れで言えず。戦中は召集され戦争へ。戦後はチェロ演奏家への道を進む。音楽を通じて出会った女性と結婚、定年まで男性として大学で教鞭をとる。だが女性として死にたいと人生の最後で性別を変える。妻とは一度離婚し養子縁組を行い、今も女性同士の2人家族として暮らしている。
At age 20 and a half—meets with Miyuki Yashiro who has lived two lives as a man and a woman.
=== 92 year old Miyuki Yashiro always had a sense of uneasiness about her gender since childhood. But in pre-war Japan, she always had to suppress it. When WWII broke out, she was conscripted. She became a cellist after the war, got married to a woman pianist and became a teacher in a music department of a university. At the age of 78, she had sex reassignment surgery in Thailand and she officially became a woman. She got divorced from her wife, but continued a close relationship by registering her as her daughter to live together as a family.
21歳。男性・女性という２つしかない性に違和感を感じる中島潤さん（26歳）さんと出会う。
⇒ 性を超えるアイデンティティを模索し「Xジェンダー（性別なし）」という性別について周囲の理解を得る。
At age 21—meets with non-binary Jun Nakajima.
===26 year old Jun was born as a girl and always felt uncomfortable as a girl. After experiencing life as a boy, Jun realized that life as a boy was unnatural and wrong. Eventually, deciding to build an identity as non-binary Jun is now devoted to changing the social recognition of non-binary gender identity